Here I am relaxing (and holding an old EMPTY beer can that we found--some freak musta thrown it into the backyard LoL) at a pool party/BBQ with some new buds in Palm Springs (which is pretty much the M.O. during the hot summers here) ...Little did I know then that July would be so busy!
Right after this, I was booked for shoots in L.A. and San Francisco this month ... I shot all day yesterday in Laurel Canyon. The weather was a perfect escape from overly humid and horridly-hot Palm Springs these days!
Will write more about it as everything unfolds ...
I was a bit unsure about the shoot yesterday because I knew I would be working with one of the Cocky Boys (Kevin Cavalli)! This is a good thing--don't get me wrong. They are all f*cking HOT ... just that I was not so sure how much I would fit into that sort of "scene?"
I feel like I'm so much more edgy/kinky/freaky than most guys anyway (Titan Director Brian Mills calls me his "favorite freak boy")--and often, I feel like I have to hold back around many of my scene partners. Would this be the case again? I really hoped not !!
And luckily, all four of my scene partners were so incredibly cool and fun to work with. Mostly straight guys ("straight guys" lol), but I sometimes think I prefer working with straight guys anyway. How strange is that? What is wrong with me?
But it did make me realize how important it will be for Black Goat Releasing (the production company I am working on) to be bisexual or even PANsexual . . . I don't want ANYONE to be left out. Everyone has so much to offer, and there are so many incredible levels on which we can connect. With each other and with that which is "bigger than us."
One of the guys--Park Wiley--was ultra cool and a fucking live-wire on camera. Major inspiration. Kevin Cavalli ("Cavalli") was totally chill.
My favorite guy was this Parisian dude named Jerome. I felt more connected to him emotionally/spiritually than to any of the others--even though he was one of the straight guys. And that level of connection supercedes the sexual for me--or dictates it anyway. Was kindof a cool moment when he stroked his cock into a fucking beautiful erection and looked me in the eyes--girly mag in his lap, his big beautiful dick standing up straight against his toned body and his speedo tanline. THAT is the kind of thing that is just CRAZY sexy for me . . . you heard?
Anyway ... when all was said and done, I realized how much I tend to bond with guys during shoots, and I am not sure if most people realize how much we connect as a result of our work together in porn.
Let people say what they want about alleged drug abuse, "promiscuity," disease, and all manner of abomination--making porn is not just fun, it is really satisfying for me on a deep level. The connections I make with guys are profound to me and like no other type of relationship I have ever had.
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