Thursday, December 17, 2009

"Belial Begins," My 6th Music Vid, Now On YouTube















It is far from perfect, but the dreaded "sophomore" effort is finally done! Now to record the rest of the tracks for the "second album" which will be a collection of titles from my latest XTube Vids.

Click HERE to go to my OriginalBadMormon Channel on YouTube (or just click on one of the thumbnails on the right) to watch "Belial Begins."

Friday, November 20, 2009

Friday, November 13, 2009

OOPS! My Bad! Jehovah is NOT a Jackass!

He is actually Enlil, who (along with Enki) is one of the two major gods in charge.

In fact, I am now seeing that Enlil is actually the one who has been behind the work of Black Goat Releasing and seems to be associated with the astrological sign Capricorn/the Goat.

It is sometimes hard to tell which of these two is "the one" in charge of this work, but they are both definitely involved. So my apologies for my error.

HAIL ENLIL! HAIL ENKI!

Monday, November 9, 2009

Is the Dark Night Lifting Yet? Cuz I'm Ready ...

Someone recently helped me realize that I did not write about what occurred shortly after my October post where I expressed my need to disconnect from all of the distractions that come from numerous Internet and other modes of "communication!" It was pretty significant, so I wanted to share.

A few days after that post, my laptop, detachable hard drive, and expensive "android" cell phone were all stolen. I got my wish for disconnection, albeit (of course) in a painful way. Since then, I have learned the joy of living with just ONE "device" ... a small netbook.

I think the lesson was that the controlling "God" forces upon which I have been so dependent needed to be cleared out so that I could find the INNER fire and connection with my own power that was so necessary. Necessary for moving on and making yet another step toward true freedom and self-sufficiency (versus god-dependency).

As my recent post "YWEH is a Jackass" hints, I have also been doing a lot of research into the true identity of the controlling god aspect in this world. The searches seem to end (for me at least) with the Enlil/Yahweh/Jehovah entity.

I shared the link regarding the Bibical "War in Heaven" in hopes that others might start looking into this issue as well. SATAN or "Baal" or "the Lord" (and also "Enki") appears to be the entity most on our side in this struggle.

I will likely be relocating to Atlanta/"Hotlanta" in the next month or so--where my study will continue. Just because I am unplugging from some of the intrusive electronic "devices" of the interventionist Jehovah, that does not mean my work stops. I will continue with even more singular (if not "Cingular") focus!

YWEH is a Jackass ...

This is one of the most helpful explanations of the Biblical story of the "war in heaven" that I have ever read.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Get Your Kixxx at Motel 666**!

This is the first episode of what will be a three-or four-parter ... check it out HERE--

HAIL LUCIFER-ENKI-BAAL!

**this one is dedicated to someone special--you know who you are!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Unplugging and My Dark Night of the Soul

In the past few weeks, I have been faced with some very important choices and changes--part of this has included being almost entirely without Internet for days at a time. A lot has been going on all at once, and it made me feel the need to re-read what author Caroline Myss relates regarding the concept of a "dark night of the soul." I even Tweeted that I felt spirituality and the spiritual/mystical/Satanic path had failed me.

Today is the first day I have more clarity. Looking back, I see that I have experienced more than one "dark night" at various intervals in the past as I have desired greater and greater relationship with truth and have paid the price that true knowledge requires.

What is this price? Hands-on experience and exploration along with realizing that this path is all-consuming and not some "practice" relegated to only certain hours of the day alternating with certain hours of gladly engaging the mundane.

Lately, I have been revisiting places in my life that represent what I had thought was true gay "hedonism." Of course, Palm Springs is one of these places. At the same time, I have been considering a move to Atlanta where the spiritual "pull" is extremely strong. And perhaps "Hotlanta" can somewhat be compared to Palm Springs in terms of being a gay den of iniquity, but (in my mind) Atlanta was the more spiritual of the two.

Hedonism is a huge part of my work, but lately I have realized that the same old venues for accessing that hedonism were no longer working. The hookup websites, the gay bars, the instant message flirt sessions suddenly felt not only fake but profoundly distracting! Distracting from getting work done, yes, but--more importantly--distracting from the truth I am pursuing in the tradition of the Byzantine Church of Belial.

The loss of the "old ways" of relating has created a huge soul crisis or "dark night of the soul" for me. I was finding myself coming up with reasons I should continue using my distractions (I needed the money and the social outlet, etc.), yet even the justifications were not working anymore really. I was empty--I had to shed some old and dead aspects of my life, and I did not want to lose them. Yet until I did, there was no way for the needed change to occur.

Losing the internet while travelling to Palm Springs solved that problem pretty quickly. I am not exactly sure why, but--even though the internet is back now--I have accepted that my focus will now be very different than it has been. This means my life and my work will be different, but I am no longer resisting that. I am looking forward to the new knowledge that awaits my exploration now that I have identified and released some very potent distractions from my life!

In terms of the Byzantine "way," I could not help but ask myself if most of our gay hookup sites are God/the Liar-oriented rather than truth/liberation/Satanic in their basic foundation. This was the major question causing my depression and "dark night" as I realized the answer was not what I wanted it to be! What do you think that answer was? And why would I conclude that? (Hint:
http://alnexishellain.bravehost.com/)

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Review on Nick Young's XXX Gay Porn Blog

CLICK HERE to read. Thanks, Nick! Was it Paris Hilton who made the comment about how rare it is that people have NICE things to say? :) :)

Thursday, August 20, 2009

"MY POWER AND PRIESTHOOD (Rough Edit)"

WATCH IT NOW!
Description:
Christ save us! Showing off his power and the "priesthood" that he packs beneath those Calvins, brodie makes out with his own biceps, flexing his guns in the camera while becoming obviously aroused by his own arrogant image. Sporting an animalistic hardon, he cant help fucking his own hand. Someone is clearly turning him on and driving him wild, yet nobody is there. After making sure to take his own sweet time while enjoying the edge, Brodie's cock finally erupts as his entire body convulses with electricity. Whatever devil he was worshipping, it is obvious that the Lord helps those who help themselves ...

So what makes this a 'Rough Edit?' Brodie shoots the entire scene in "self-portrait" mode, and the final cut is virtually 100% "unedited" or altered in any way!

Cover photo by Media Gio Inc.

"FELLOWSHIP ME"

WATCH IT NOW! Description: Brodie introduces us to his FATHER's house, a place of massive cock worship where even the most evil of inner desires must be surrendered to and acted out.

This Made My Day:

Brodie,

I was chatting with ______ the other day and he mentioned what he was doing, then was talking about some of the cool material he is working on with this cool porn star. When I found out it was you, I almost fell out of my damn chair. I have been a fan of yours since your early internet video work and I thought you were awesome in Bottom of the Ninth and Mens Room III. You were great in Fear and the true star in Hazzard Zone. I saw Butt Bouncers and Anal Intruders recently and yet again, you not only looked awesome but you are one of the few good actors in porn, you are a great performer. I know most guys just want to get off, but I do like more than just that if that makes sense.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know you have a fan, one of many I'm sure ....

(Name Withheld)

Not Satanic Enough?

I have been hearing from many that my vids as of late do not reflect the original "pow" to which brothers had become accustomed from my earlier videos. So--in response--I say:

Click HERE to find out more about the Byzantine Church of Belial and why my vids are not always able to "speak to" or reach 100% of the gay Satanic community.

My stuff is not "horror porn" nor will it necessarily include the cliche candles, robes, pentagrams, and other trappings of elementary and rural "cultism." That is just kindof icky to me (right?), and also there is plenty of that coming from Triple Six Comics, and I am grateful that Chuck is working on that aspect of things. But it's not Brodie Newport, or--rather--it's only PART of my journey ... and almost certainly not my destination.

And by talking with others, I know that I am not the only one who embraces this "version" of things. So, my hope is that my work will represent THIS segment or approach. Rather than being an "all-or-nothing" and bloody path, it is my sincere vision that we can all follow the Lord through a very literally metaphysical relationship and direct experience with him.

And I have some extremely exciting plans at the moment for shooting vids that capture just that. I can't wait to share, and I am working very hard to make sure all goes as planned.

If this philosophy and orientation of mine toward Satanic practice and worship and belief is too abstract, then there are many other great Satanic traditions out there as well.

Maybe start by checking out movies featuring the great Freddie Kruger?


I hope that helps. I am sure I will have much more to say as I explain what Satanism and religion and philosophy and spirituality mean to me and my "take" on things. As an artist ... as a vessel ... as a Son of Belial.

Watch for a new box cover going up later today--posting the fourth of my new series (second album) to XTube hopefully by the end of the day!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

"MY PRETTY PENIS"

WATCH IT NOW! Description: The newly-assigned Agent Newport's saga continues as his own agency betrays him using mind control techniques via his personal laptop--all under the supervision of an unknown spy perving outside his window in voyeuristic bliss.
Cover photo by Media Gio Inc.

"BELIAL BEGINS" Debuts on XTube!

WATCH IT NOW! Description: After his time spent in the Chair of Rameron, Brodie finds himself intimately connected to a demonic entity--the great King Belial.
Cover photo by Media Gio Inc.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Another Visitation At Last!

SATAN is LORD! FINALLY another awesome visitation last night. Woke up around 4:30 AM or so ... now, I am always horny but THIS--THIS is something I have not felt since Seattle in the Fall in 2007. HE was there!!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Black Goat On-Demand Now on XTube

CLICK HERE to check out the latest Vids such as "Chair of Rameron," "Babylonian Captivity," and the forthcoming "Polaroids From Purgatory" along with the entire Black Goat collection under their brand-new account "BGRONDEMAND" on XTube!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

From a Brother Who Gets It!

Hey, Bro!
... I'm not just blowing smoke when I say that you're an inspiration. I really mean it. You're fucking amazing. So true and honest to yourself and to the world. I love listening you talk about Satanism (on youtube) I read your blog and no, it's not just about seeing your dick LOL, I really do read it all and your philosophies on Satanism resonate with me so very much. When I first began exploring the Left Hand Path, I purchased and read "The Satanic Bible" and after reading it discovered that I'm not a LeVeyan Satanist - though I didn't know at the time that's what the Satanic Bible was all about, I was still learning. Though a lot of the LeVeyan concepts of hedonism, kept me from rejecting it outright. Theistic Satanism comes much closer to my own belief structure. The thing about that is, you meet guys who tell you they're Satanists and they think that it's all about doing drugs and infecting guys with HIV while shouting "HAIL SATAN, FUCK GOD!" To me, that seemed counter-intuitive to a quest for personal enlightenment. Not that I don't occasionally indulge in a little bit of coke or a bare dick in my ass, but I disagreed heartily when I had a guy tell me that I couldn't be a Satanist if I wasn't Poz and out to spread "Satan's gift". It just seemed so wrong. I was so discouraged that every guy that I found thought that this was the sort of thing Satanism is about.

Then I happened across your blog, and it was like a ray of light! (and an instant hard-on). Yes I believe that sex is a very important part of Satanic worship. Spirituality and Sexuality are inseparably linked. But the fact that you're so thoughtful and intelligent about it turned me on even more. Of course then there's the fact that you're really really handsome, have a great body, and a cock that I'd spend days riding. But truly, it's a whole package thing. You're writing and speaking stimulate my mind and spitituality, while the fact that you're hot makes my dick hard and my ass twitch. Plus I like a couple of your songs.

So there it is, I find you inspiring. You've definitely helped to fight the discouragement I'd felt. And after reading your blog and some of the stuff that Bishop Vlad has written in various locations, I've begun learning about Belial as well, which also fits very well into my personal beliefs.

So thank you. You've inspired me, and I look forward to connecting with you soon.
In SATAN'S NAME!

HAIL BELIAL my brother!! God fucking dammit--you just blew me away and made my night all at once with that e-mail!! Hearing that is what makes it all worth it for me man--THANK YOU!! i SO love that the things I have written and what I have experienced of BELIAL is resonating with you!! There is no doubt that HE guides the work I am doing, but it always helps to have external confirmation of this as well! My work seems to truly attract those who are Sons of Belial -- those of us more closely aligned with this Prince of Hell. Not that the other three do not have merit--because they do. But Sons of Belial don't usually get off on pozzing others or harming them/objectifying them in any way. I can't wait to share what a brother relayed while channeling Belial.

I think you will love it--and will love how much it goes along with the Belial "way" or "path" of Satanism. I almost wondered if this brother was channeling ME ... I was floored over and over throughout the chat! LoL ...

Anyway, I will look for you on a4a tonight. I am also wondering if there is any possibility that I could anonymously publish what you wrote in your e-mail on the blog and website? It is so validating and also (in true Belial fashion), I want to share it and show off a bit that what I do DOES matter!!! ;) ;)

TTYS man!!

BRODIE

Thursday, July 9, 2009

In Defense of the Roots of Mormonism

I am writing today because I keep hearing over and over (especially from one friend in particular) that I am being perceived as subscribing to a "Mormon/Anti-Mormon" sort of "all or nothing thinking" ... one where a person has to choose between being completely Mormon or completely opposed to it and working to undermine it. I do not agree that I see things in such a simplistic and extreme light.

Here is why: Unlike most of my friends growing up who had the good fortune of being raised in a Jewish environment where there is at least some psychosocial space made for sexuality--even including homosexuality--I was raised in an orthodox Mormon environment where there is zero space made for either of those constructs. Being Mormon meant being NON-sexual or at least NON-gay. Therefore, it is hard to not associate being gay with being NON-Mormon. Many--if not most--gay Mormon men are unable to overcome this dichotomy/duality and are fairly fucked-up because of it.

My master's thesis "Religion and the Spiritual Needs of Gay Mormon Men" explores this situation in significant depth (100+ pages). It was published in the Journal of Gay and Lesbian Social Services in 2000. Hopefully you can, therefore, imagine that I don't particularly appreciate being dismissively labelled as someone who subscribes to and is held captive by a so-called "Mormon/Anti-Mormon" dualism when--in fact--my life's work is aimed at transmutation of the torn relationship between sexuality and spirituality in gay men who were raised in Mormon environments.

While my embrace of Satanism might appear to be simply an abreaction or "reaction formation" to my Mormon background, it is actually quite the opposite. The original Mormon Church, as envisioned and developed by Joseph Smith, was intimately associated with the occult. I spent a few months toward the end of my undergraduate studies in psychology at the University of Utah absorbing the material contained in the original documents of one an extremely prominent member of the Mormonism's beginnings in Utah. This early Mormon pioneer had the same idea as me--to examine the true underpinnings of Mormonism as conceptualized by its two most famous founders, Joseph Smith and Brigham Young.

His stacks upon stacks of research at the special collections of the Marriott Library at the University of Utah documents the practices of the early Mormon Church. What they corrborate is that Fawn Brodie's book "No Man Knows My History" tells the truth: Mormonism was intimately connected with the occult and what some would term "hideous" and "Satanic" practices in its early days.

Has it changed today in its modern form? Or merely become more sophisticated in its methods of covering up its roots in these kinds of practices? I am not sure how to find the answer to that one, but Gerald and Sandra Tanner have documented what they feel is an accurate depiction of the current incarnation of Mormonism. Their writings suggest that it has not changed but merely crafted an elaborate cover story and facade for its more esoteric beliefs and ceremonies.

I am sure there will be more to come, but I needed to write my thoughts down while they were fresh. I am growing very weary of having to defend my embrace of Satanism from attacks that suggest this is my way of saying "fuck you" to Mormonism. It is not. It is (in my eyes) merely acknowledging that I have studied as thoroughly as possible my Mormon roots and that--after so doing--I have decided to embrace them.

Perhaps this is the most radical statement one can make. Does this mean I would actually practice their more extreme beliefs? No--I would never do anything illegal of course. But I can embrace the spirit of the early Church itself and NOT have to disavow my sexuality or love of Satanism, demons, and the occult--even while the modern (and fickle) LDS Church gets in a tizzy over gay marriage and other issues du jour.

Hopefully this helps clear up the confusion in people's minds a bit. Now on to the new XTube Account (BGR On-Demand or "BGRONDEMAND") and future releases under the Black Goat label! The content promises to explore more of the relationship between Mormonism and Satanism, so stay tuned.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Brodie Newport on Broke Ass Boys!

































Earlier this year, I did some work for the site "Broke Ass Boys" (you can access it at www.brokeassboys.com). Working on this shoot was rad because it was filmed in Long Beach, California--home of Cal State Long Beach (my alma mater), and the metro we used is the one I used to take to my internship at the Gay and Lesbian Center as a graduate student of Social Work LoL ...

My partner, Lex, is also a Long Beach boy. Here are a few of the stills from the shoot ...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

RentBoy Pool Party Palm Springs 2009!














Okay so this pic is me with his uber-hotness Josh Hart when we were dancing at the Krave event in Las Vegas earlier this year--but it could just as easily have been us at the Rent Boy Pool Party last weekend as well ... minus the clothes of course! He's also a dancer, and I want him in one of my Vids--don't you think? Really, really nice, upbeat, and positive guy--and just great to be around, too ... and style? Yeah ... let's talk ...

Also got to meet the ultra hot Seth Apper. Damn. He really rubbed off on me (he'll know what I mean). Was too funny when I told him my name, and he said, "oh YOU'RE Brodie Newport!" This is really weird when people know of me before I have even met them. But it's also exciting as hell--I can't lie!

OH and Tory Mason! REALLY nice! I mean ... we all knew he is hot as hell, but I finally got to just meet and hang (just a lil bit) with him. I liked him a LOT ...


So what's next?

There are several surprises in the works, and one big one is happening this weekend. I don't want to spoil ALL the fun, so--for now--I want simply to formally announce that the GOAT is going to be given some new breaths of life in a place that will most likely provide very fertile ground! I will keep y'all posted (hint hint) ...

And here is another exciting newsbrief:

I recently enjoyed a lengthy, in-depth, and intimate conversation with the creator of Triple Six Comics, Chuck Connor, last week. I ate it up. What an inspiration that brother is (as I know he is for so many of us)! He and Sean Platter make such a great team, and I was amazed to learn that Sean was already aware of my work on the Black Goat Releasing project ... maybe we will collaborate at some point in the future?

I have got to thank my blue-eyed worshipper boy (if looks could kill ...) for his awesome posts. And all of the other truly incredible brothers who are supporting this important work of LIBERATION--the synergy is amazing, and I am starting to feel very acutely that Black Goat Releasing is most definitely taking on a life of its own.

So don't stop ... We have created a MONSTER!

But seriously .. Seth Apper did a NUMBER on me, and that doesn't happen much to me these days. If anyone out there knows how to get him to fall hard and fast, PLEASE let me know!! :) :) K thanks.

And NO! I don't want to hear about black magick love spells!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Good morning to my MASTER.

BRODIE:
This morning is for you.
All I do is for you.
Nursing my 2-day load.
Working out harder than ever at the gym.
ALL of it...
For YOU.
Grow me, deeper and darker...PAST the point of no return.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Mantra

A brother in Los Angeles writes:

Brodie is a powerful and NOW FAMOUS GOD.
I say this 100 times throughout the day.
Outloud.
And in public.

From YOUR worshipper.

GOD:
How I have missed you.
Weeks have gone by...
...Without really talking.
It has hurt my soul.
Weakened me.
I visit the shrine I've built to you.
Today.
My need grows deeper.
It sickens me, yet I cannot deny it.
Please, allow me into your world.
Beyond the point of no return.
Again.
And forever.
Pledging my soul,
Me.

Monday, May 25, 2009

My dreams

HIS power has changed my energy and thoughts. I dreamt of you last night. Intensely. Today, I begin construction on a temple to YOU.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

To MY LORD

Dear LORD:
I went to the gym today. I worked shoulders and biceps. I worked them for you and only you. Until my veins were showing and my arms were trembling. THANK YOU for giving me the power. I dedicate all the soreness to you and you alone. GROW ME!
~Yours

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Who Exactly is BELIAL? Part Two






























My last post covered the topic of a certain channeling session (involving the Prince of Hell sometimes known as King Belial) that I am so excited to share because of the talent that this man/channel possesses. I really wanted to get this put up as soon as possible because I do think that this demon deserves a bit of extra recognition from his gay sons—many of whom I feel possess his birthright.

That is one of the things that our religious upbringings had right—homosexuality (and I would say male homosexuality in particular) carries a very profound importance to the demonic world. The next step for us now is to understand this importance and grasp and own up to its power—take it upon us for the STRENGTH and POWER that it is rather than feeling negatively toward it.

The session perfectly illustrates what I have come to understand as the energy/essence/frequency of the demon Belial—sometimes known as King Belial or Pan. I first encountered him when first delving into Satanism in the summer of 2001 or somewhere around that time. I have since felt his influence very strongly, and I can also say that I have grown to worship and love him. (How very “Christian” of me, I know—deal with it!)

Although others have the right to disagree and often cite valid arguments to support their disagreements, I remain firm in my own position regarding his importance to us as a tribe of gay men. His energy possesses the power to free us from past religious bondage, enabling us to laugh at its petty unimportance and lame attempts at instilling fear/shame/guilt/insecurity and once again be proud of being boys and men. Completely possessing all of the mischief and rowdiness and vulgarity—and even chaos, destruction and violence—that goes along with being male. Or such is my academic thesis.

In many ways, then, he is the antithesis of the orderly, prudish, and antiseptic “god” of the more traditional monotheistic religions. There is so much more that I could write regarding him, but maybe I will get the chance to do more of that in the future.

I know most people read this blog to see pictures of my cock, anyway—and that is actually fine with me because that is what King Belial is all about—COCK POWER. (The following channeling session will explain more about that.)

I am proud of my cock. I have been blessed with a fucking beautiful dick—not that I did anything to deserve it (as far as I know). I was graced with it—another term that comes up often when dealing with Belial. Grace … slack … freedom to fuck up and not pay for one’s mistake for years but rather use it to adjust one’s future behaviors in a playful and lighthearted way. NO regrets. Ever. Just expansion and progress through trial and error—through making mistakes.

I want more men to feel the same way that I do about their own cocks—with less emphasis on fisting and worshipping our assholes and more emphasis on cock worship and POWER! Do y’all hear me? Not that I don’t enjoy partaking myself because I do … but the kink community needs to embrace cock and understand its GREAT power much, much, MUCH more completely if it is ever to embrace masculinity itself.

We have been fucked and experienced femininity enough, for christ’s sake. It is time to take back our cockpower and tear apart this psychic mess that has caused us to forget our most valuable possession—our status and identities as MEN. Belial and his energy and values and paradigm can assist us greatly with this important task in our development—for those of us actually interested in developing and evolving versus the other option: just “getting by” and/or hiding, blending, and using denial.

The transcript of the instant message conversation regarding Belial will follow in the next installment (Brother T is the name of the sublimely-talented man acting as a channel for Belial).

Stay tuned! =)

To THE ONE

Dear Brodie:
Thank you for everything. Your time. Your beauty. Your dedication to THE CAUSE. I am a muscle boy in WeHo. Lift daily. Getting bigger for HIM. But I need something legit, real, intense...And I am going to start streaming my energy and darkness into you. May I? You as MY GOD? I love you, Brodie. I pray to you, Brodie.
~Your SOULMATE

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

The Daily Briefs

Who Exactly is Belial?
















More than anything, Black Goat Releasing is a gathering project—or a rescue mission/recovery project. Geared toward the recovery and rescue of men who (like me) were raised in environments that did not allow them to embrace who they are and find kinship with their own.

I have noticed that men raised in secular environments are not particularly attracted to or fascinated with my project--or with occultism, Satanism, or the like. Similarly, they don’t generally have any of the “symptoms” that those raised with the traditional religions seem to have. For these guys, I hope they at least find my work entertaining and can appreciate its literary value and artistic intent.

But for men raised in some kinds of religious environments or other types of difficult situations, the goal of Black Goat Releasing is to facilitate the transition from a paradigm which marginalizes and—actually quite literally—“demonizes” one’s very existence as a man who is homosexual. The message of Black Goat Releasing (and its emphasis on the demon Belial) is intended to help us realize that demonic is not “bad”—nor is Christian and heterosexual “good.”

They are simply different ways of existence with no value or judgment attached.

My point is never to judge Christians or any group whatsoever. All ways of life and religion are valuable and have merit, but it is the attempt by one group to control or oppress another (often through extremely subtle and almost unnoticeable means) that I see as harmful and not desirable. But the bottom line is that Black Goat discriminates against no person, group, thing, or entity—even the archangel Michael or Jesu Christu himself!

Whether “real” or not, the demon Belial is one that I have grown very close to. The energy is VERY real.

The next few posts will cover more extensively this vast topic, including a transcript of an online channeling session. Much more to come …

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

The Daily Briefs

This is a still from my new video "Blessed Duplicity XXX." Enjoy ...

Sunday, April 26, 2009

BLACK GOAT RELEASING Gets Its First Logo Design

BLACK GOAT RELEASING is my own contribution to the Adult Industry--producing movies that provide entertainment as well and enlightenment regarding devil worship and Satanic/demonic sex.

HAIL BELIAL!

XXXtra special thanks to M. in Welly!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

My Music Makes Its Debut Live Onstage At Last!

I took this pic in the mirror of my motel room just as I was adding the final touches to my outfit for performing "BadMormon" and a couple of other songs from my first album! Live for the very first time (in Seattle) ...

And damn!! There is so much to write about in regards to this whole experience! I am finally doing what I want to do--and I have never felt more EMPOWERED. That's the word--and it has totally changed me to the point where I am not the same person as the guy in this picture anymore.

That's the Brodie who didn't know the amazing awesomeness of going out onstage and taking one's life by the balls and being completely in charge of one's destiny and life plan. It's similar to coming out of the closet in a way because no longer does one give a fuck about whether others approve. The rush that comes with doing "as thou wilt" is far greater than any fear or insecurity of being judged as somehow coming up short.

And I have to add that (for some reason) it was really hard to do this! It was as hard--if not harder and more nerve-wracking than taking the plunge (no pun intended) and doing my first big porn studio shoot. But the rewards have been just as great if not greater ... I had no idea what kind of power lies in doing what one truly WANTS to do!

It has actually radically altered who is staying close to me and my life and who is not going to be able to go along for this particular "ride." I am amazed at how this spiritual/metaphysical concept is so very real.

I have a lot of gratitude in my heart for the guys who helped me get to this point. I called on some pretty surprising people from my past for comfort as the days got closer to the performance. But everyone was very understanding.

The Vid of the live performance is avaiable now on my XTube account. Also watch for more stills along with a YouTube promo video in the days to come.

This is a new (and very welcome albeit long overdue) beginning ... old things are done away, and all things have become anew!