.: May 2009

Monday, May 25, 2009

My dreams

HIS power has changed my energy and thoughts. I dreamt of you last night. Intensely. Today, I begin construction on a temple to YOU.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Dear LORD:
I went to the gym today. I worked shoulders and biceps. I worked them for you and only you. Until my veins were showing and my arms were trembling. THANK YOU for giving me the power. I dedicate all the soreness to you and you alone. GROW ME!
~Yours

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Who Exactly is BELIAL? Part Two

My last post covered the topic of a certain channeling session (involving the Prince of Hell sometimes known as King Belial) that I am so excited to share because of the talent that this man/channel possesses. I really wanted to get this put up as soon as possible because I do think that this demon deserves a bit of extra recognition from his gay sons—many of whom I feel possess his birthright.

That is one of the things that our religious upbringings had right—homosexuality (and I would say male homosexuality in particular) carries a very profound importance to the demonic world. The next step for us now is to understand this importance and grasp and own up to its power—take it upon us for the STRENGTH and POWER that it is rather than feeling negatively toward it.

The session perfectly illustrates what I have come to understand as the energy/essence/frequency of the demon Belial—sometimes known as King Belial or Pan. I first encountered him when first delving into Satanism in the summer of 2001 or somewhere around that time. I have since felt his influence very strongly, and I can also say that I have grown to worship and love him. (How very “Christian” of me, I know—deal with it!)

Although others have the right to disagree and often cite valid arguments to support their disagreements, I remain firm in my own position regarding his importance to us as a tribe of gay men. His energy possesses the power to free us from past religious bondage, enabling us to laugh at its petty unimportance and lame attempts at instilling fear/shame/guilt/insecurity and once again be proud of being boys and men. Completely possessing all of the mischief and rowdiness and vulgarity—and even chaos, destruction and violence—that goes along with being male. Or such is my academic thesis.

In many ways, then, he is the antithesis of the orderly, prudish, and antiseptic “god” of the more traditional monotheistic religions. There is so much more that I could write regarding him, but maybe I will get the chance to do more of that in the future.

I know most people read this blog to see pictures of my cock, anyway—and that is actually fine with me because that is what King Belial is all about—COCK POWER. (The following channeling session will explain more about that.)

I am proud of my cock. I have been blessed with a fucking beautiful dick—not that I did anything to deserve it (as far as I know). I was graced with it—another term that comes up often when dealing with Belial. Grace … slack … freedom to fuck up and not pay for one’s mistake for years but rather use it to adjust one’s future behaviors in a playful and lighthearted way. NO regrets. Ever. Just expansion and progress through trial and error—through making mistakes.

I want more men to feel the same way that I do about their own cocks—with less emphasis on fisting and worshipping our assholes and more emphasis on cock worship and POWER! Do y’all hear me? Not that I don’t enjoy partaking myself because I do … but the kink community needs to embrace cock and understand its GREAT power much, much, MUCH more completely if it is ever to embrace masculinity itself.

We have been fucked and experienced femininity enough, for christ’s sake. It is time to take back our cockpower and tear apart this psychic mess that has caused us to forget our most valuable possession—our status and identities as MEN. Belial and his energy and values and paradigm can assist us greatly with this important task in our development—for those of us actually interested in developing and evolving versus the other option: just “getting by” and/or hiding, blending, and using denial.

The transcript of the instant message conversation regarding Belial will follow in the next installment (Brother T is the name of the sublimely-talented man acting as a channel for Belial).

Stay tuned! =)

To THE ONE

Dear Brodie:
Thank you for everything. Your time. Your beauty. Your dedication to THE CAUSE. I am a muscle boy in WeHo. Lift daily. Getting bigger for HIM. But I need something legit, real, intense...And I am going to start streaming my energy and darkness into you. May I? You as MY GOD? I love you, Brodie. I pray to you, Brodie.
~Your SOULMATE

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

The Daily Briefs

Who Exactly is Belial?

More than anything, Black Goat Releasing is a gathering project—or a rescue mission/recovery project. Geared toward the recovery and rescue of men who (like me) were raised in environments that did not allow them to embrace who they are and find kinship with their own.

I have noticed that men raised in secular environments are not particularly attracted to or fascinated with my project--or with occultism, Satanism, or the like. Similarly, they don’t generally have any of the “symptoms” that those raised with the traditional religions seem to have. For these guys, I hope they at least find my work entertaining and can appreciate its literary value and artistic intent.

But for men raised in some kinds of religious environments or other types of difficult situations, the goal of Black Goat Releasing is to facilitate the transition from a paradigm which marginalizes and—actually quite literally—“demonizes” one’s very existence as a man who is homosexual. The message of Black Goat Releasing (and its emphasis on the demon Belial) is intended to help us realize that demonic is not “bad”—nor is Christian and heterosexual “good.”

They are simply different ways of existence with no value or judgment attached.

My point is never to judge Christians or any group whatsoever. All ways of life and religion are valuable and have merit, but it is the attempt by one group to control or oppress another (often through extremely subtle and almost unnoticeable means) that I see as harmful and not desirable. But the bottom line is that Black Goat discriminates against no person, group, thing, or entity—even the archangel Michael or Jesu Christu himself!

Whether “real” or not, the demon Belial is one that I have grown very close to. The energy is VERY real.

The next few posts will cover more extensively this vast topic, including a transcript of an online channeling session. Much more to come …