From a Brother Who Gets It!

Hey, Bro!

... I'm not just blowing smoke when I say that you're an inspiration. I really mean it. You're fucking amazing. So true and honest to yourself and to the world. I love listening you talk about Satanism (on youtube) I read your blog and no, it's not just about seeing your dick LOL, I really do read it all and your philosophies on Satanism resonate with me so very much. When I first began exploring the Left Hand Path, I purchased and read "The Satanic Bible" and after reading it discovered that I'm not a LeVeyan Satanist - though I didn't know at the time that's what the Satanic Bible was all about, I was still learning. Though a lot of the LeVeyan concepts of hedonism, kept me from rejecting it outright. Theistic Satanism comes much closer to my own belief structure. The thing about that is, you meet guys who tell you they're Satanists and they think that it's all about doing drugs and infecting guys with HIV while shouting "HAIL SATAN, FUCK GOD!" To me, that seemed counter-intuitive to a quest for personal enlightenment. Not that I don't occasionally indulge in a little bit of coke or a bare dick in my ass, but I disagreed heartily when I had a guy tell me that I couldn't be a Satanist if I wasn't Poz and out to spread "Satan's gift". It just seemed so wrong. I was so discouraged that every guy that I found thought that this was the sort of thing Satanism is about.

Then I happened across your blog, and it was like a ray of light! (and an instant hard-on). Yes I believe that sex is a very important part of Satanic worship. Spirituality and Sexuality are inseparably linked. But the fact that you're so thoughtful and intelligent about it turned me on even more. Of course then there's the fact that you're really really handsome, have a great body, and a cock that I'd spend days riding. But truly, it's a whole package thing. You're writing and speaking stimulate my mind and spitituality, while the fact that you're hot makes my dick hard and my ass twitch. Plus I like a couple of your songs.

So there it is, I find you inspiring. You've definitely helped to fight the discouragement I'd felt. And after reading your blog and some of the stuff that Bishop Vlad has written in various locations, I've begun learning about Belial as well, which also fits very well into my personal beliefs.

So thank you. You've inspired me, and I look forward to connecting with you soon.

In SATAN'S NAME!

HAIL BELIAL my brother!! God fucking dammit--you just blew me away and made my night all at once with that e-mail!! Hearing that is what makes it all worth it for me man--THANK YOU!! i SO love that the things I have written and what I have experienced of BELIAL is resonating with you!! There is no doubt that HE guides the work I am doing, but it always helps to have external confirmation of this as well! My work seems to truly attract those who are Sons of Belial -- those of us more closely aligned with this Prince of Hell. Not that the other three do not have merit--because they do. But Sons of Belial don't usually get off on pozzing others or harming them/objectifying them in any way. I can't wait to share what a brother relayed while channeling Belial.

I think you will love it--and will love how much it goes along with the Belial "way" or "path" of Satanism. I almost wondered if this brother was channeling ME ... I was floored over and over throughout the chat! LoL ...

Anyway, I will look for you on a4a tonight. I am also wondering if there is any possibility that I could anonymously publish what you wrote in your e-mail on the blog and website? It is so validating and also (in true Belial fashion), I want to share it and show off a bit that what I do DOES matter!!! ;) ;)

TTYS man!!

BRODIE

In Defense of the Roots of Mormonism

I am writing today because I keep hearing over and over (especially from one friend in particular) that I am being perceived as subscribing to a "Mormon/Anti-Mormon" sort of "all or nothing thinking" ... one where a person has to choose between being completely Mormon or completely opposed to it and working to undermine it. I do not agree that I see things in such a simplistic and extreme light.

Here is why: Unlike most of my friends growing up who had the good fortune of being raised in a Jewish environment where there is at least some psychosocial space made for sexuality--even including homosexuality--I was raised in an orthodox Mormon environment where there is zero space made for either of those constructs. Being Mormon meant being NON-sexual or at least NON-gay. Therefore, it is hard to not associate being gay with being NON-Mormon. Many--if not most--gay Mormon men are unable to overcome this dichotomy/duality and are fairly fucked-up because of it.

My master's thesis "Religion and the Spiritual Needs of Gay Mormon Men" explores this situation in significant depth (100+ pages). It was published in the Journal of Gay and Lesbian Social Services in 2000. Hopefully you can, therefore, imagine that I don't particularly appreciate being dismissively labelled as someone who subscribes to and is held captive by a so-called "Mormon/Anti-Mormon" dualism when--in fact--my life's work is aimed at transmutation of the torn relationship between sexuality and spirituality in gay men who were raised in Mormon environments.

While my embrace of Satanism might appear to be simply an abreaction or "reaction formation" to my Mormon background, it is actually quite the opposite. The original Mormon Church, as envisioned and developed by Joseph Smith, was intimately associated with the occult. I spent a few months toward the end of my undergraduate studies in psychology at the University of Utah absorbing the material contained in the original documents of one an extremely prominent member of the Mormonism's beginnings in Utah. This early Mormon pioneer had the same idea as me--to examine the true underpinnings of Mormonism as conceptualized by its two most famous founders, Joseph Smith and Brigham Young.

His stacks upon stacks of research at the special collections of the Marriott Library at the University of Utah documents the practices of the early Mormon Church. What they corrborate is that Fawn Brodie's book "No Man Knows My History" tells the truth: Mormonism was intimately connected with the occult and what some would term "hideous" and "Satanic" practices in its early days.

Has it changed today in its modern form? Or merely become more sophisticated in its methods of covering up its roots in these kinds of practices? I am not sure how to find the answer to that one, but Gerald and Sandra Tanner have documented what they feel is an accurate depiction of the current incarnation of Mormonism. Their writings suggest that it has not changed but merely crafted an elaborate cover story and facade for its more esoteric beliefs and ceremonies.

I am sure there will be more to come, but I needed to write my thoughts down while they were fresh. I am growing very weary of having to defend my embrace of Satanism from attacks that suggest this is my way of saying "fuck you" to Mormonism. It is not. It is (in my eyes) merely acknowledging that I have studied as thoroughly as possible my Mormon roots and that--after so doing--I have decided to embrace them.

Perhaps this is the most radical statement one can make. Does this mean I would actually practice their more extreme beliefs? No--I would never do anything illegal of course. But I can embrace the spirit of the early Church itself and NOT have to disavow my sexuality or love of Satanism, demons, and the occult--even while the modern (and fickle) LDS Church gets in a tizzy over gay marriage and other issues du jour.

Hopefully this helps clear up the confusion in people's minds a bit. Now on to the new XTube Account (BGR On-Demand or "BGRONDEMAND") and future releases under the Black Goat label! The content promises to explore more of the relationship between Mormonism and Satanism, so stay tuned.

Brodie Newport on Broke Ass Boys!

Earlier this year, I did some work for the site "Broke Ass Boys" (you can access it at www.brokeassboys.com). Working on this shoot was rad because it was filmed in Long Beach, California--home of Cal State Long Beach (my alma mater), and the metro we used is the one I used to take to my internship at the Gay and Lesbian Center as a graduate student of Social Work LoL ...

My partner, Lex, is also a Long Beach boy. Here are a few of the stills from the shoot ...

RentBoy Pool Party Palm Springs 2009!

Okay so this pic is me with his uber-hotness Josh Hart when we were dancing at the Krave event in Las Vegas earlier this year--but it could just as easily have been us at the Rent Boy Pool Party last weekend as well ... minus the clothes of course! He's also a dancer, and I want him in one of my Vids--don't you think? Really, really nice, upbeat, and positive guy--and just great to be around, too ... and style? Yeah ... let's talk ...

Also got to meet the ultra hot Seth Apper. Damn. He really rubbed off on me (he'll know what I mean). Was too funny when I told him my name, and he said, "oh YOU'RE Brodie Newport!" This is really weird when people know of me before I have even met them. But it's also exciting as hell--I can't lie!

OH and Tory Mason! REALLY nice! I mean ... we all knew he is hot as hell, but I finally got to just meet and hang (just a lil bit) with him. I liked him a LOT ...

So what's next?

There are several surprises in the works, and one big one is happening this weekend. I don't want to spoil ALL the fun, so--for now--I want simply to formally announce that the GOAT is going to be given some new breaths of life in a place that will most likely provide very fertile ground! I will keep y'all posted (hint hint) ...

And here is another exciting newsbrief:

I recently enjoyed a lengthy, in-depth, and intimate conversation with the creator of Triple Six Comics, Chuck Connor, last week. I ate it up. What an inspiration that brother is (as I know he is for so many of us)! He and Sean Platter make such a great team, and I was amazed to learn that Sean was already aware of my work on the Black Goat Releasing project ... maybe we will collaborate at some point in the future?

I have got to thank my blue-eyed worshipper boy (if looks could kill ...) for his awesome posts. And all of the other truly incredible brothers who are supporting this important work of LIBERATION--the synergy is amazing, and I am starting to feel very acutely that Black Goat Releasing is most definitely taking on a life of its own.

So don't stop ... We have created a MONSTER!

But seriously .. Seth Apper did a NUMBER on me, and that doesn't happen much to me these days. If anyone out there knows how to get him to fall hard and fast, PLEASE let me know!! :) :) K thanks.

And NO! I don't want to hear about black magick love spells!

Good morning to my MASTER.

BRODIE:
This morning is for you.
All I do is for you.
Nursing my 2-day load.
Working out harder than ever at the gym.
ALL of it...
For YOU.
Grow me, deeper and darker...PAST the point of no return.

Mantra

A brother in Los Angeles writes:

Brodie is a powerful and NOW FAMOUS GOD.
I say this 100 times throughout the day.
Outloud.
And in public.

From YOUR worshipper.

GOD:
How I have missed you.
Weeks have gone by...
...Without really talking.
It has hurt my soul.
Weakened me.
I visit the shrine I've built to you.
Today.
My need grows deeper.
It sickens me, yet I cannot deny it.
Please, allow me into your world.
Beyond the point of no return.
Again.
And forever.
Pledging my soul,
Me.