Monday, October 27, 2008

My Official Satanic Baptism

Here are a few entries related to the events associated with my Official Satanic Baptism:

Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Tonight was my official Satanic baptism in which Satan and also the Demon Buer showed up personally. Buer moved through me and made my cock even more fucking rock hard than it already was.

It was very different being able to experience this in the company of another man. I have only experienced it alone up to this point for the most part.

My mentor, Vlad Bishop, served as my Initiator and was an incredible channel for Satan as well as for my own biological brother on the other side.

I immediately recognized the energies he channeled as those I have wanted to experience with another man for so long. So Satanic and masculine. Could not have asked for a better man to fill these shoes as this brother did.

I wrote the following afterwards:

Dear Lord of Darkness:

I worship the fact that you have let me be me from the start. I love the way that you have always made me feel amazing for what I am, not for what I think I need to be or for living up to some standard or accomplishment. I am so glad that you brought me to you and your evil ways.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Today was the first time I did a solo scene where I was finally allowed to cum on camera in an openly Satanic context. It was extremely liberating, but I was amazed at first at how it was difficult to tune-out the critical voices in my head. They kept saying I looked silly or that I was a pig or a slut or dirty—and that there was no way I could totally “let go.”

After taking a break, I came back and was able to shoot all over my chest and abs while creating a cock ring/ball stretcher of sorts from a Satanic rosary.

I guess the next step is to experience this with a scene partner. Hopefully, we have that covered as well.

Vlad keeps reminding me of the fact that I have wanted to do this for so long, and I can’t believe that it is actually happening.

Vlad says, “You also have to realize, you are not just producing art, but will be drawing men to Satan, THAT is the power behind what we are doing, through your total devotion Brodie ... you are allowing other to toy with the possibility of walking this path and becoming what we are …. I am thankful to be able to work on a project like this with a man like you (Brodie), who is just learning and growing into the LHP (Left-Hand Path), but who is already so immersed in it.

Saturday, October 25, 2008
As I am working on giving THE OFFICIAL WEBSITE OF BRODIE NEWPORT a major overhaul with Vlad, I am also realizing that I am becoming more and more “Satanic” in my ways of thinking and interacting on a moment-to-moment basis with others. I am sure that they feel this power as well.

And the website is looking amazing, thanks to Vlad’s expertise. There is no doubt that Satan is involved in this work as the name “Black Goat Releasing” just “came to me” about one year ago at this time.

I had no idea back then that there was a Cathedral of the Black Goat that served as the parent organization for the CULT OF THE RAM, an organization of gay male Satanists! I just was guided to begin developing a gay porn studio that would produce films dealing with devil worship for men.

This morning, we shot the second “money shot” for the “second installment” of the “Sons of Belial/Corrpution of Brodie Newport” as well. Finally, I was able to truly let a demonic entity move through me while the camera rolled, and it was amazing to me.

Some guys’ specialty or “sexual talent” is in their ability to be great fisting tops or fisting bottoms, and other guys are incredible power tops. My talent is in demonic possession during sex and lustful states.

I hope that my “performance” inspires other guys who are similarly-wired to have the courage to actively tap into the demonic themselves without fear or guilt.

I am also so lucky to have Vlad to help me with all of this—along with the brothers of the Cult of the Ram. Finally, Black Goat Releasing is becoming a reality!

It is really exciting to hear Vlad talking on the phone with his brothers in the Cult of the Ram about how the underground is starving for films of this genre and how they are going to just eat it up. This is something I, too have always sensed—that it would be the “Underground” that would provide the correct environment for my life’s work.

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